Love is knowing the feeling is real, without having to ask.....
Love is breaking down the walls of one person, and building them back up around an entire family....
Love is protection you feel at night when you close your eyes, and that sweet feeling of sharing the next day together....
Love is understanding fault, and working through it without critisizing....
Love is missing him in the morning before he leaves for work, and getting so excited in the afternoon knowing he will be home soon....
Love is putting ones wishes above your own, because alone, you long for someone to wish with....
Love is remaining strong, when the other just can't be....
Love is not only knowing the true meaning of the word, but knowing how much of it you have....
Love is finding the ONE God sent, and enjoying a natural rythm, that only He can give to each of His pairs....
Love is a true gift from above, it is something to hold on to and cherish, it requires patience, forgiveness, loyalty, and true friendship. It is also believing in yourself, and knowing that you deserve your partner and they deserve you. Together you make a beautiful team, able to face any battle, because in the end, win or loose, you faught the fight TOGETHER....
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
WHAT TO DO???
I'm sure at one point and time we have all been told, "you were at the wrong place at the right time!"
How in the hell do you deal with being at exactly the right place, but at the wrong time?
Because I know without a shadow of a doubt, I am in the absotute right place, at the worst time possible. How do you hang in there and wait.....? I have little patience, but know the more I practice being patient, the better things will turn out.
In every moment of my life I have always been able to say exactly what was on my mind, but now I find myself not able to say a word. When I talk to others about this hush hush topic, they see exactly where I am coming from and are rooting for me just as much as I am for myself. Everyone however has a different opinion on how I should handle things, and also on what way someone else might be thinking.
I wish I was a mind reader, it would make it much easier to know exactly how I should handle this situation.
Unfortunatly I'm not though, and sit on my hands, as well as bitting my tongue, just praying that God will let me know how to deal with something he has put right in front of me.
HELP.....
How in the hell do you deal with being at exactly the right place, but at the wrong time?
Because I know without a shadow of a doubt, I am in the absotute right place, at the worst time possible. How do you hang in there and wait.....? I have little patience, but know the more I practice being patient, the better things will turn out.
In every moment of my life I have always been able to say exactly what was on my mind, but now I find myself not able to say a word. When I talk to others about this hush hush topic, they see exactly where I am coming from and are rooting for me just as much as I am for myself. Everyone however has a different opinion on how I should handle things, and also on what way someone else might be thinking.
I wish I was a mind reader, it would make it much easier to know exactly how I should handle this situation.
Unfortunatly I'm not though, and sit on my hands, as well as bitting my tongue, just praying that God will let me know how to deal with something he has put right in front of me.
HELP.....
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Blessings
I thought that as I got closer to God somehow my broken heart would be completly mended. Well that's not exactly how it turns out. Yes, the scars created not only by others, but myself as well, from years and years ago turned into forgiveness, and extra prayers for my enemies.
Regret that ate at me from the inside out turned into life lessons that I learn and teach from. Hearts that I mangled on purpose, just because I hated happy, are being repaired all the time with a simple "I'm Sorry." The worry that was weighing me down, heavier, and heavier everyday, seemed to turn into just a few seconds of thought, every now and again. And faith, I have way more than a tiny little mustard seed, I have bushel baskets baby!!! Thank God for His gifts to us.
See, I have traveled a winding road, most of my life. Always looking for home, always looking for me, and getting myself into situations I would have never imagined being in. Forever feeling so alone, so abandoned, blah blah blah....
And no matter how "out of my mind " I would get, I always knew God was there, ashamed most of the time, I would still turn to the sky in the middle of the night and way into the heavens I would start shouting. "Why do You care? Why do you keep protecting me? You took me away from the family I was born to, took away my children from me, If I can't be a daughter or a mother, and I constanty spit on all your creation, what could possibly be the reason You persist on keeping me here?
Seems to turn out I love it down here!!! And heartache, yea I still get them but they are my heart hurting for others. That kind, feels right. All my trust, all my hope and all my faith are in my God above. He never left my side no matter how much I begged, and I'm so thankful for that. I would have missed out on camping trips, canoeing down beautiful rivers, being part of a beautiful church group, I could never leave Lifepoint... I would have missed out on being able to spread the love God gave to me to so many others who need it just as much as I do.
Just remember to smile at everyone you pass, hold a door open for someone, just say hello to someone whom you've never spoken to , you don't know what kind of day someone has been having and you might be the one God wants to make them feel better. Be thankful even if it is tuff, and GIVE IT TO GOD, He asked for it, and He can handle it.
Yep, I'm very happy!!!! And it just keeps getting better
Regret that ate at me from the inside out turned into life lessons that I learn and teach from. Hearts that I mangled on purpose, just because I hated happy, are being repaired all the time with a simple "I'm Sorry." The worry that was weighing me down, heavier, and heavier everyday, seemed to turn into just a few seconds of thought, every now and again. And faith, I have way more than a tiny little mustard seed, I have bushel baskets baby!!! Thank God for His gifts to us.
See, I have traveled a winding road, most of my life. Always looking for home, always looking for me, and getting myself into situations I would have never imagined being in. Forever feeling so alone, so abandoned, blah blah blah....
And no matter how "out of my mind " I would get, I always knew God was there, ashamed most of the time, I would still turn to the sky in the middle of the night and way into the heavens I would start shouting. "Why do You care? Why do you keep protecting me? You took me away from the family I was born to, took away my children from me, If I can't be a daughter or a mother, and I constanty spit on all your creation, what could possibly be the reason You persist on keeping me here?
Seems to turn out I love it down here!!! And heartache, yea I still get them but they are my heart hurting for others. That kind, feels right. All my trust, all my hope and all my faith are in my God above. He never left my side no matter how much I begged, and I'm so thankful for that. I would have missed out on camping trips, canoeing down beautiful rivers, being part of a beautiful church group, I could never leave Lifepoint... I would have missed out on being able to spread the love God gave to me to so many others who need it just as much as I do.
Just remember to smile at everyone you pass, hold a door open for someone, just say hello to someone whom you've never spoken to , you don't know what kind of day someone has been having and you might be the one God wants to make them feel better. Be thankful even if it is tuff, and GIVE IT TO GOD, He asked for it, and He can handle it.
Yep, I'm very happy!!!! And it just keeps getting better
Monday, May 19, 2008
Temporary Mom Forever God
I have 3 children who can now almost be considered adults. Either way it doesn't change the way a mother feels. To me they will always need protecting no matter how old they get. It is really hard for me to "let go and let God." I can admit that they do not belong to me, but to Him, and no matter how much I love them He loves them more.
My middle child which is my daughter is headed down a path that I myself have not only walked down but had her tagging along. I tried to find comfort in the way I was raising he by believing that if she had food, had clothes, a roof over her head, and my "physco" protection she had so much, and would grow to be a beautiful, strong, and independent woman.
She is all of those things and more, oh did I mention 14!!! The more I try to protect her the more she rebels. I have been involved with the schools, police, and now the court system more in these past months than I have in my 34 years on the planet. I try to kiss her she turns away, I try to be a loving mother and she denies me.
Today I went to court yet again to watch my daughter and her "attorney" address the judge ,without any input from me, about her being put in charge of her own life. I can't stand man's laws, they are never focused around the same principles that my Savior's laws are......LOVE..........
They will never care for her the way I do, and I have to now really focus on "LETTING GOD!"
My middle child which is my daughter is headed down a path that I myself have not only walked down but had her tagging along. I tried to find comfort in the way I was raising he by believing that if she had food, had clothes, a roof over her head, and my "physco" protection she had so much, and would grow to be a beautiful, strong, and independent woman.
She is all of those things and more, oh did I mention 14!!! The more I try to protect her the more she rebels. I have been involved with the schools, police, and now the court system more in these past months than I have in my 34 years on the planet. I try to kiss her she turns away, I try to be a loving mother and she denies me.
Today I went to court yet again to watch my daughter and her "attorney" address the judge ,without any input from me, about her being put in charge of her own life. I can't stand man's laws, they are never focused around the same principles that my Savior's laws are......LOVE..........
They will never care for her the way I do, and I have to now really focus on "LETTING GOD!"
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Heavy Hearted
I seem to wear my feelings on my sleeve. So I figured I could start a blog to release some of the burden, maybe then I won't be so ready to explode...
Can't Do It Alone
What a terrible place I dwell in;
confined is such fleshly sin.
As my soul cries out during the night;
my mind still carries me to things not right.
God I pray to take me from here, DEATH, what a joy;
it's life that I fear.
I've tried, and I've tried to give it my all;
yet the taller I stand, truly the harder I fall.
So tonight Dear Lord, as you lay me down for rest;
I'll face another tomorrow, and give it my best.
Wake me in the morning, sun in my face;
for I continue to survive, through only Your sweet grace!!!!
Can't Do It Alone
What a terrible place I dwell in;
confined is such fleshly sin.
As my soul cries out during the night;
my mind still carries me to things not right.
God I pray to take me from here, DEATH, what a joy;
it's life that I fear.
I've tried, and I've tried to give it my all;
yet the taller I stand, truly the harder I fall.
So tonight Dear Lord, as you lay me down for rest;
I'll face another tomorrow, and give it my best.
Wake me in the morning, sun in my face;
for I continue to survive, through only Your sweet grace!!!!
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